On the surface everything looks so calm, so cool, so collected. Inside the angels and demons are staging their war. If the Transformers tagline is, Their war, our world, mine would be Their war, my head. I still have not come to terms with some things following the demise of my father. There are a lot of conflicting thoughts and things that needed to be accepted. Sometimes it's hard to accept things at face value. I'm finding it hard to shut the voice inside me that yearns for explanations.
Lately the world has a different hue. It seems that it has been gloomy or maybe I am gloomy. I watched Transformers thinking it would somehow lighten the mood but after the movie it's back to reality. Reality bit me, I think I am 4 pounds lighter. Just my imagination perhaps.
When my siblings told me of the stories that were told to them, I could barely stop myself from crying and I realized that I have been a horrible person and once again the tears are almost falling.
Too late, right?
How long does a person grieve?
The more familiar transformers tagline I used to hum when I was a little boy was
ReplyDeleteTransformers, more than meets the eye, transformers, robots in disguise.
watching transformers was like watching my childhood cartoons grow up.